loneliness strikes ,,
i hate this feelings...a sad feelings, a real bad just like losing my mom again.
JAMES BOND MALAYA, MD
life is full of surprises
Monday, January 19, 2015
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Miss Sandakan soo much..
Already more than a year i left Sandakan. Within a year so many things have happened.
I was in Putrajaya Hospital for 6 months, then i was in Kajang Hospital for another 6 months. I was in Kajang for my compulsory rotation in emergency medicine and general surgery (each for 3 months). This rotation is for the Master of General Surgery training..
Yup..since June last year i've joined master. It is a 4 year course..
It was damn difficult and i didn't get through the part 1 exam which was held last November.
I've to resit again this coming May.
Part 1 exam is just basic surgical science examination. We were asked about anatomy, physiology, pathology and principles of surgery... I knew it is difficult exam while i was in Sandakan. I've studied since 2008 but i guessed the study didn't paid off.
Fortunately , i've passed my MRCS exam part a last september. The exam was 10x easier than our local part 1 Master of Surgery..
Now i'm at Hospital Kuala Lumpur doing compulsory ICU and general surgery rotations.
Gosh..just within a year i've worked in 3 different hospitals in Klang Valley!
Life in HKL is damn busy. It's really big hospital, which is 5 times larger than Sandakan Hospital.
Missing Sandakan deeply. I really miss the environment there: the people, the nurses and the patient...
I was in Putrajaya Hospital for 6 months, then i was in Kajang Hospital for another 6 months. I was in Kajang for my compulsory rotation in emergency medicine and general surgery (each for 3 months). This rotation is for the Master of General Surgery training..
Yup..since June last year i've joined master. It is a 4 year course..
It was damn difficult and i didn't get through the part 1 exam which was held last November.
I've to resit again this coming May.
Part 1 exam is just basic surgical science examination. We were asked about anatomy, physiology, pathology and principles of surgery... I knew it is difficult exam while i was in Sandakan. I've studied since 2008 but i guessed the study didn't paid off.
Fortunately , i've passed my MRCS exam part a last september. The exam was 10x easier than our local part 1 Master of Surgery..
Now i'm at Hospital Kuala Lumpur doing compulsory ICU and general surgery rotations.
Gosh..just within a year i've worked in 3 different hospitals in Klang Valley!
Life in HKL is damn busy. It's really big hospital, which is 5 times larger than Sandakan Hospital.
Missing Sandakan deeply. I really miss the environment there: the people, the nurses and the patient...
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Kawan Baru..
From Sandakan to Putrajaya
It's almost 5 months i left Sandakan, Sabah. I was in Sandakan for 5 years..(Oct 2005 to Oct 2010). And off course, i'm still missing Sandakan, especially my working colleague... Here are photos taken before i left to KL. An old photo, to the right is Mr Ng, my head of department..i didn't managed to have a photo with him as he already resigned from the ministry
With Surgical clinic nurses..
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Depression
Been away almost 8 months.
Main reason: i'm depressed.
Life is full of surprises and challenges. I'm never thought i will face the challenges.
The year 2010 was really bad..i almost wanted to kill my self ..(i was lucky i still have faith to God).
The main reason i'm depressed: my mom has passed away.
Never..never thought she died this soon. I'm not prepared to lost her.
She was sick and i thought she will stay with us longer.
She passed away 2 weeks in the month of Ramadan, 2010.
I was really depressed after that and for the first time i just feel lonely.
The first of Syawal 2010 was just lonely and i'm stuck in Sandakan doing oncall.
That's when the lonelines strike and i was in a low mood.
I really missed her. Only God know.
Main reason: i'm depressed.
Life is full of surprises and challenges. I'm never thought i will face the challenges.
The year 2010 was really bad..i almost wanted to kill my self ..(i was lucky i still have faith to God).
The main reason i'm depressed: my mom has passed away.
Never..never thought she died this soon. I'm not prepared to lost her.
She was sick and i thought she will stay with us longer.
She passed away 2 weeks in the month of Ramadan, 2010.
I was really depressed after that and for the first time i just feel lonely.
The first of Syawal 2010 was just lonely and i'm stuck in Sandakan doing oncall.
That's when the lonelines strike and i was in a low mood.
I really missed her. Only God know.
Now, almost 6 months i'm still having flashback of her especially things i haven't done which i should have done when she is around.
errmm..it's just too late.Friday, June 25, 2010
Tiada Rezeki
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Those Good Old Dreams
Those Good Old Dreams
As a child I was known for make-believing
All alone I created fantasies
As I grew people called it self-deceiving
But my heart helped me hold the memories
As I walk through the world I find around me
Something new, yet familiar's in the air
I feel it ev'rywhere
Like a child's eyes
On a Christmas night
I'm lookin' at you now
Finding answers to my prayers
(*) It's a new day for those good old dreams
One by one it seems they're comin' true
Here's the morning that my heart had seen
Here's the morning that just had to come through
Same old stage but what a change of scene
No more dark horizons, only blue
It's a new day for those good old dreams
All my life I dreamed of lovin' you
You're a spark of a long forgotten fire
You're a touch of a slowly growing wind
You're a taste of the ever-changing seasons
Telling me there are some things that don't end
We have left all the darkness far behind us
All those hopes that we held along the way
Have made it to this day
Like an old love song
Gone for much too long
You hear it once again
And it carries you away
Repeat (*)
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