Been away almost 8 months.
Main reason: i'm depressed.
Life is full of surprises and challenges. I'm never thought i will face the challenges.
The year 2010 was really bad..i almost wanted to kill my self ..(i was lucky i still have faith to God).
The main reason i'm depressed: my mom has passed away.
Never..never thought she died this soon. I'm not prepared to lost her.
She was sick and i thought she will stay with us longer.
She passed away 2 weeks in the month of Ramadan, 2010.
I was really depressed after that and for the first time i just feel lonely.
The first of Syawal 2010 was just lonely and i'm stuck in Sandakan doing oncall.
That's when the lonelines strike and i was in a low mood.
I really missed her. Only God know.
Main reason: i'm depressed.
Life is full of surprises and challenges. I'm never thought i will face the challenges.
The year 2010 was really bad..i almost wanted to kill my self ..(i was lucky i still have faith to God).
The main reason i'm depressed: my mom has passed away.
Never..never thought she died this soon. I'm not prepared to lost her.
She was sick and i thought she will stay with us longer.
She passed away 2 weeks in the month of Ramadan, 2010.
I was really depressed after that and for the first time i just feel lonely.
The first of Syawal 2010 was just lonely and i'm stuck in Sandakan doing oncall.
That's when the lonelines strike and i was in a low mood.
I really missed her. Only God know.
Now, almost 6 months i'm still having flashback of her especially things i haven't done which i should have done when she is around.
errmm..it's just too late.
3 comments:
patutla dr lama suda menghilang........suram ja blog ni......mana suda james bond malaya yg banyak jak idea untuk bercerita, suka share experience dia,n mcm2 lagila.........
Be tough Doc! Have faith in HIM... :)
tak perlu berduka dan bermuram durja.3 pkara yg tidak akan putus meski pun kta sda meninggal dunia:
1. amal jariah
2. ilmu yg bmanfaat
3. anak soleh
so, masih byk yg blh dbuat utk ibu, walaupun dh meninggal dunia.
tips dr utz zahazan (sumber hadith)
1. Doakan ibu
2. Byk istigfar utk ibu
3. Laksanakn janji2 ibu
4. Mhormati dn memuliakn shbt2 yg soleh/hah ibu
5. Mjalinkn silaturahim kpd saudara ibu spt makcik, pakcik...
Smua org biasa dgr ni, tp kdg2 kene remain sbb manusia cepat lupa tmasuk sy... "Mati itu pasti, antara org yg umur 100 tahun dgn bayi yg 1 bulan, tiada guarantee siapa yg mati kemudian"
Rasulullah s.a.w telah bersabda yang maksudnya:”Jika seorang hamba Allah kematian anak, Allah bertanya kepada Malaikat:”Adakah kamu telah mengambil nyawa anak hamba-Ku? Malaikat menjawab:”Ya.” Allah bertanya lagi: “Kamu telah mengambil nyawa buah hatinya?” Malaikat menjawab:”Ya”. Allah bertanya kali ketiga:”Apakah kata hamba-Ku?”Malaikat menjawab:”Ia bersyukur pada-Mu serta mengucapkan “dari Allah kita datang dan kepadanya kita kembali”. Allah Ta’ala memerintahkan malaikat-Nya:”Binalah baginya sebuah rumah di syurga dan namakan rumah itu ‘Rumah Kesyukuran’.”
(at-Tirmidzi dan Ibnu Hibban)
Kesimpulanya, mesti redha dan belapang dada, org yg pergi tu bukan pgi kemana...cuma bpindah ke alam transit. doakan Ibu, smoga alam barzakhnya menjadi salah sbuah taman2 di syuga! wallahu'alam:>
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